.x.But.If.You're.Ready.To.Be.My.Everything.x.

ups n downs

2005-05-18T19:51:13Z

prom was a good time. i loved how my hair turned out, tania n tati did it and it was great. me n alaric had such a good time. after prom was pretty bad though.
n its official, me n alaric are "taking a break" even though he still lives with me, tells me he loves me, and promises we belong together. it doesnt make any sense. its the worst feeling in the world. no one can even say they understand cuz unless you have been through exactly what i am there is no way you possibly can.
i dont know what im gonna do, im just waiting it out right now. we'll see what happens. he promises me we will get back together soon so who knows...

but im out, i gotta go to work. laterrs <3

all smiles :0)

2005-04-05T20:55:53Z

everythings been going good lately. Yesterday Alaric said he would go to prom with me :0) which i guess since he is my boyfriend he should but i didnt think he wanted to so i was excited when he said yes. n i got my dress yesterday n then i went back to the shoppe today and changed my order cuz i didnt really like the one i had gotten very much n i absolutely LOVE my new one. its exactly what i wanted. :0)
i didnt get into Fordham but i did get waitlisted so o well, we all knew i was gonna go to Bridgewater anyways. so i am sending in my deposit and what not hoping i dont get stuck in a triple, keepin my fingers crossed.

well im out now, tonnns of work to do.
Laterrrs :0)

Goin Crazy

2005-04-04T02:48:00Z

Ever since the day you went away
And left me lonely and cold
My life just hasn't been the same
Oh baby no
When I looked into your eyes
The moment that I let you go I just broke down

Baby if I ever get the chance to be with you again I would sacrifice
'Cause the feelin that I feel within no other man
Would ever make me feel so right

It's nice to smile when I get your phone call at night
But I'd rather have you here with me
Right next to me
And I miss the way you hold me tight

I've got to let you know I feel so weak without your touch
I never thought that I could ever love a man so much
I've gotta let you know I think that we are destiny
For you I'd cross the world for you
I'd do anything

That's right baby
I'm going crazy
I need to be your lady
I've been thinking lately
That you and me, yes we can make it
Just ride with me, roll with me
I'm in love with you (baby)

Break it down now I'll tell you what I feel
From the moment that I met you it's been so damn real
My heart seems to skip another beat every time we speak
Can't believe I feel so weak
Tell me that you really need me
And you want me
And you miss me
And you love me
I'm your lady
I'll be around waiting for you
Put it down be the woman for you
I'm falling so deep for you
Crazy over you I'm calling
Callin' out to you
What am I gonna do?
It's true no frontin'
It's you ain't no other
I can no longer go on without you
I'll just break down

I've got to let you know I feel so weak without your touch
I never thought that I could ever love a man so much
I've gotta let you know I think that we are destiny
For you I'd cross the world for you
I'd do anything

That's right baby
I'm going crazy
I need to be your lady
I've been thinking lately
That you and me, yes we can make it
Just ride with me, roll with me
I'm in love with you (baby)

evrythingiwantd @ 2005-03-11T23:30:00

2005-03-12T04:32:09Z

Evrything has been so good lately. im happy. Im mad bored so i thought i would do this...
i noticed i only update when i do these survey things....hmm weird....i dont know....later

*TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey*
Name:	Michelle
Birthday:	August 14, 1986
Birthplace:	Concord, Ma
Current Location:	Leominster, Ma
Eye Color:	Greenish-Brown
Hair Color:	Dark Brown
Height:	5'7"
Right Handed or Left Handed:	Right
Your Heritage:	Irish/French Canadian/Scottish
The Shoes You Wore Today:	My Valentines Day edition Air Force I's
Your Weakness:	Not being able to say no to people
Your Fears:	Being alone
Your Perfect Pizza:	Plain cheese :0)
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:	Passing the 12th grade would be nice :0)
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:	haha
Thoughts First Waking Up:	"Do I REALLY need to go to school today?"
Your Best Physical Feature:	Eyes
Your Bedtime:	Whenever I feel like going to sleep
Your Most Missed Memory:	Summer of '03
Pepsi or Coke:	Diet
MacDonalds or Burger King:	MacDonald's burgers, Burger King's french fries
Single or Group Dates:	Depends on what the date is...
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:	Neither
Chocolate or Vanilla:	Vanilla :0)
Cappuccino or Coffee:	Eeeew...neither
Do you Smoke:	Not cigarettes
Do you Swear:	Occasionally
Do you Sing:	All the time, haha
Do you Shower Daily:	Yes, except on Sundays usually lol
Have you Been in Love:	Yeah
Do you want to go to College:	I guess so...
Do you want to get Married:	Yes
Do you belive in yourself:	Most of the time
Do you get Motion Sickness:	Not at all
Do you think you are Attractive:	"It's just one of those things I know." - Alexis, haha
Are you a Health Freak:	Not at all
Do you get along with your Parents:	Most of the time
Do you like Thunderstorms:	Sure
Do you play an Instrument:	No
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:	Yes
In the past month have you Smoked:	Not cigarettes
In the past month have you been on Drugs:	Yeah
In the past month have you gone on a Date:	I guess so
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:	Yeah
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:	Haha, yesterday
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:	Gross no
In the past month have you been on Stage:	Yes
In the past month have you been Dumped:	Nope
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:	No
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:	I dont think so
Ever been Drunk:	Yeah
Ever been called a Tease:	Yes, lol
Ever been Beaten up:	Nope
Ever Shoplifted:	Yes
How do you want to Die:	I dont care how it happens, its gonna happen
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:	A grown up
What country would you most like to Visit:	I want to go everywhere
*In a Boy/Girl..*
Favourite Eye Color:	Blue
Favourite Hair Color:	Brown
Short or Long Hair:	Short, and if long, in braids
Height:	Taller than me
Weight:	More than me, less than a small car
Best Clothing Style:	Ecko, Rocawear, G-unit...stuff like that
Number of Drugs I have taken:	One
Number of CDs I own:	Maybe 5
Number of Piercings:	Four
Number of Tattoos:	One
Number of things in my Past I Regret:	Zero, Everything I've done has altered who I am, and I dont regret that, so I dont regret anything that has gotten me there.
CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

evrythingiwantd @ 2004-11-29T19:06:00

2004-11-30T00:16:04Z

heyy...

Happy late Thanksgiving to everyone. Leominster Finally won the football game!! yay. it was definately a good time, tons of people were there.

anyways, so school started back up again today :0( it wasnt that bad, i just cant wait for college.

i dyed my hair last night. i just made it my natural color. which is a reallly dark brown. i love it though. i dont know why i ever dyed my hair in the first place.

hmm...so ive been thinking alot lately...say you realllly like someone, and they like you too, buuut they live kinda far away, n you dont get to see them very often, is it worth it to put all your effort into it??

i just dont know anymore...im getting so confused. errr. its like when im with him or even just having a really good conversation with him i KNOW its worth it, but its been a motnh since i saw him last, and it will prolly be about another month till i see him again, and it seems like the longer we go without seeing eachother, the easier it is for him to not see me, and its so hard for me. i dunno maybe im just being paranoid but sometimes im scared that im putting all this effort into this and maybe he's not....i dunno....

im gonna just stop now cuz i sound like an idiot.

im out. laters.

bored...

2004-11-13T18:14:28Z

im really broed and sick of just sitting here waiting so i stole this from Ali...

What time are you starting this? 12:42
Name? Michelle
Nicknames? Meechy, Shelly, Shells
Date of birth? August 14, 1986
Sex? Girl
Height? 5'7"
Eye color? Borwnish green
Where were you born? Concord
Number of candles on your last birthday cake? 18
Pets? a dog named bear and a fish named corneillius
Hair color? brown
Piercings? 3 in my right ear 4 in my left
Town you live in? Leominster
Favorite foods? chicken parmesean
Ever been to Africa? nope
Been toilet papering? no
Love someone so much it made you cry? no
Been in a car accident? yeah, it wa sa long time ago tho
Croutons or bacon bits? neither
Favorite day of the week? fridays :0)
Favorite resturant? bugaboo creek
Favorite flower? sunflowers
Favorite sport to watch? football i guess
Favorite drink? lemonade :0)
Favorite ice cream flavor? mint chocolate chip
Warner Bros. or Disney? Disney
Favorite fast food restuarant? Wendys!!
Carpet color in your bedroom? white, n blue
How many times did you fail your driver's test? none :0)
Whom did you get your last email from? i dont ever check my email
Which store would you choose to max out your credit card? demo and finish line
What do you do most often when you are bored? sleep
Most annoying thing to say to me? start to tell me something then say "o nevermind" n not finish
Bedtime? whenever i fall asleep
Favorite TV show? the oc
Last person you went out to dinner with?: umm...i cnat remember
Been out of country? besides canada n mexico just panama
Believe in magic? nope
Ford or Chevy? umm i guess ford
What are you listening to right now? let me love you | mario :0)
Have you ever failed a grade? no
If you have, what grade did you fail? none
Do you have a crush on someone? yeah...
Do you have a bf/gf? no
If so, what is their name? --
How long have you been together? ---
What are you wearing right now? polo sweat pants, black tank top n red zip up
Would you have sex before marriage? too late
Have you ever had a crush on any of your teachers? nope
Do you smoke? not ciggarettes
Do you drink? yea
Are you ghetto? whats ghetto??
Are you a player? nope
What are your favorite colors? pink and blue
What is your favorite animal? giraffes
Do you have any birthmarks? tons
Have you ever gotten your ass kicked? no
Who do you talk to most on the phone? Alaric
Have you ever been slapped? not seriously
Do you get online a lot? not really anymore
Are you shy or outgoing? most of the time im outgoing
Do you shower? once in awhile...
Do you hate school? most of the time
Do you have a social life? yeah
How easily do you trust people? probably too easy
Do you have a secret people would be surprised knowing? doesnt everyone
Would you ever sky dive? yeah :0)
Do you like to dance? i dont do it
Have you ever been out of state? yea
Do you like to travel? love it
Have you ever been expelled from school? nope
Have you ever been suspended from school? no
Do you want to get out of your hometown? for a lil while at least
Are you spoiled? not at all
Are you a brat? no
Have you ever been dumped? yea
Have you ever gotten high? yep
Do you like snapple? snapple lemonade yea, optherwise not really
Do you drink a lot of water? not really
What toothpaste do you use? i dont know
Do you have a cell phone? yup
Do you have a curfew? eer yeah
Who do you look up to? tall people
Are you a role model? prolly not a good one
Have you ever been to Six Flags or Cedar Point? six flags yeah
What name brand do you wear the most? ecko
What kind of jewelry do you wear? silver, im tryin to get a gold set too
What do you want pierced? my nose, tongue n belly button
Do you like takin pictures? sure
Do you like gettin your picture taken? i dotn really care
Do you have a tan? one thats barely leftover from summer, i need one
Do you get annoyed easily? with certain things yeah
Do you have your own phone or phone line? just my cell
Do you have your own pool? ya
Do you prefer boxers or briefs? boxers on guys
Do you have any siblings? 2 sisters, danielle and christina
Have you ever been played? hasnt everyone
Have you ever played anyone? yeah i guess so, but not on purpose
Do you get along with your parents? sometimes
How do you vent your anger? get pissed off
Have you ever ran away? no
Have you ever been fired from a job? lol yeah
Do you even have a job? Sears and Montys
Do you daydream a lot? allll the time
What do you want a tattoo of? its hard to explain...i would have to draw it for you
What does your most recent crush look like? lol he's beautiful
Whats her/his name? if you know me, you know who it is
What was the last compliment you recieved? when bebo told me i wasnt cute i was beautiful
Do you like getting dirty? hmmm maybe
Are you flexiable? not really anymore
What is your heritage? french canadian, irish, scottish
What is your lucky number? 4
What does your hair look like right now? down with a head band
Could you ever be a vegetarian?never
Describe your looks? i think you all know what i look like
If you had to completely dye your hair it'd be what color? prolly auburn
Would you ever date someone younger than you? not too much younger
Would you ever date someone older than you? of course
When was the last time you were drunk? too long ago, monster jam
Do you look more like your mother or father? some peopel say i look like my dad n some say i look like my mom
Do you cry a lot? not usually
Do you ever cry to get your way? no, if i cry its for a good reason
What phrase do you use most when on the phone? haha prolly something stupid that only Alaric would get
Are you the romantic type? not really
Have you ever been chased by cops? not chased, but woken up by them lol
What do you like most about your body? i hate my body
What do you like least about your body? my stomach
When did you have your first crush? when i was like 4 lol
When was the last time you threw up? umm....over the summer one night outside julios i think
In the opposite sex, do you prefer blondes or brunettes? brunettes
Do you ever wear shirts to show your belly? not purposely
What about cleavage? i dotn have cleavage lol
What theme does your room have? umm its blue with stars n stuff
What size shoe do you wear? like a 9.5
What is your screen name on AIM? xopeaches4uox06
How are you feeling right now? frustrated
When was the last time you were at a party? prolly like a month ago
Have you ever given a lapdance? just to my friends as a joke
Have you ever recieved one? just as a joke
Has there ever been a rumor spread about you? too mamy
What is one of your bad qualilties? i get frustrated too easy sometimes
What is one of your good qualilties? most of the time im pretty easygoing
Would you marry for money? never
What do you drive? nothing
Are you more of a mommys or daddys child? neither
When was the last time you cried in school? eeeh last year
Would you ever bungee jump? yeah
What is your worst fear? being one of those old ladies that lives alone with cats
If you were to die today, what would you do? everythign i could
If you had one last thing to say to someone before you die, what would it b? everything i never said even though i watned to
Do you like to party? yeah
Hearts or broken hearts? hearts
Moons or stars? stars
coke or pepsi? diet coke
Favorite scent? boys :0)
Favorite band? i dont have a favorite band
Would you ever dye your hair red? yeah
How many languages can you speak? english, im in spanish 4 but can only speak a lil
What time are you finishing this? 1;14, wow

hmm...

2004-11-13T17:16:29Z

wow, its really been FOREVER since i last updated...oops. nothin really has been going on. just school and the same old shit that goes down there.

i got a job at sears and at montys. so basically every weekend ill spend working. fun.

i was supposed to be in NY right now, but now i have no clue when im leaving. i was supposed to leave wednesday after school but then me n maggie decided to wait till friday for a few different reasons. n now she wanted to wait till some time today because she wasnt feeling good. but who knows when we weill leave. i gotta go to the open house for fordham tomorrow. which is kinda pointless cuz im not sure if i even want to go there anymore but o well....

this weekend is a long weekend and so far it hasnt been that bad. it snowed!!! :0) i was so excited, i felt like a little kid, i was just sitting infront of a window watching it snow. i cant wait to go snowboarding, i really wanted to go last night, im not even sure if the mountains open yet or not. hmm...

im supposed to be seeing somebody before i leave, but that prolly wont happen cuz they seem to like to blow me off...but who knows. im out. laterrs :0)

*kids these days have to save themselves because their parents have no clue...

2004-08-26T03:27:49Z

A feel good quiz by cerulean_dreams
your name is...
your eyes	are two drowning pools
your hair	is your pride and glory
your smile	draws others towards you
your body	is envied by many
your hugs	are caring and addicting
your kiss	is mysterious
your love	is wanted

Quiz created with MemeGen!

first of all...what the hell are "two drowning pools" supposed to look like??

so i had a really boring day today.
i sat at home all day long doing nothing. well actually. i lied. i did like 3 loads of laundry. i watched Donnie Darko. i tried to figure out the Donnie Darko website. i watched the talented mr. ripely.

at this point it was 8:30 and i was still in my pajamas. so i took a shower n got dressed. n then when my dad got home at 9:30 me n him went out for dinner at the monument grill. it was the first time both of us had been there, and it was pretty good.

i had the weirdest dream last night...it was bout Puerto Rico. we'll leave it at that.

byyye :0)

*these are my confessions....

2004-08-23T18:45:14Z

Usher and Kanye West concert last night.

It was so good. Basically im gonna marry Usher cuz he is the sexiest man alive.

He is such a good performer its unreal.

Kanye West was amazing as well.

but anyways, im going back outside to layout.

byye <3

*if i want to...

2004-08-22T15:34:58Z

tonight is the Usher and Kanye West concert :0) im soooo excited bout that. but i cant find Danielle. i slept at my house all by myself last night cuz no one could sleep here and Danielle is MIA.

Mario's gone :0( thats so sad.

i have another spider bite thing on the back of my leg, and it hurts soooooo badly. i cant really sit down comfortably. i dont know what im gonna do bout that.

well im out now.

byye <3

*i aint got no issues with hittin that another time....

2004-08-21T21:00:04Z

i got another new pair of sneakers today. i think i really have an obsession. thats like 9 pairs since the end of april. i got the g-unit ones today. ive wanted them for so long and they were on sale so i figured i might as well. i also got a cute rocawear zip up, its pink.

Mario leaves tomorrow morning for Memphis :0( thats sad, im gonna miss him. he had a goin away party last night n it was a wicked good time. mad people were there. i ended up having to sleep there...long story, it was crazy.

natanya picked me up at his house this morning and then me n her did a couple errands n then went to solomn pond with nina.

tonight was supposed to be the last night of the car hop but since it was like a monsoon we didnt have to work. so im jobless again :0( errr.

well natanya n liz are both on their way here now so im out.

byye <3

*its u n me against the world...

2004-08-17T21:09:32Z

i havent updated in a lil while, it always slips my mind n i just cant seem to find the time to do it, even tho i just sit on my ass all day.

saturday was my 18th birthday. i had a good time. we just had a family party here and some of my friends came. brandon blew me off. he didnt even say happy birthday to me. o well im done with that. then that night me n liz took amandas car n went to mario's house with matias. i missed him so much so it was good to see him. we slept at amandas that night.

i opened up a checking account yesterday! lol i felt so old. i put all but 135 dollars of my birthday money in it and so far i am up to $633. i didnt really get anything else but its all good cuz id rather have a car. n my dad said now that i have enough for the first couple months of insurance he will get me a car, which is sooooo exciting.

last night me liz and danielle went out to dinner then we decided just to drive, we ended up in paxton then we turned around. then we went to bloody forest but there was a chain up. so we decided to try n find spider gates in worcester. well after like an hour of driving around we found it but we were too scared to go in cuz we didnt have any flashlights n we thought our cell phones would be enough. but then we turned off the car and it was absolutely pitch black.

we decided we are gonna go back. but we are gonna bring flashlights. n boys. :0)

well im out. byye.

:0)

2004-08-08T16:40:45Z

i havent updated in awhile and since i know you are all dying to know wut i have been doin, which isnt much, but ill let you all know...

lets see...

Monday-
Brandon came to visit :0) we had a good time. basically we just hung out all day, but it was good.

Tuesday-
i started soccer. then i went shoppin with liz n i got another new pair of sneakers. black n gray air forces.

Wednesday-
i worked at the diner in the morning then me, my mom, danielle, christina, my nana, and my papa all went to see the Lion King in boston. it was good. the costuems were amazing.

Thursday-
i had soccer again. then i went to Chuck E. Cheese with my mom my lil sister and my cousin. ooo it was a good time. Chuck E. asked me for my number haha it was so funny.

Friday-
i worked then me n liz went to Amanda's so she could go out.

Saturday-
went to solomn with julio, lindsay and rocky. smoked on the way there. didnt end up buying anything. then went to work. it was so slow. lindsay picked me up n then a lil later julio n rocky cam over then natanya n jamie came over n we all just hung otu for a lil while. everyoen went home n then at 2 i went n picked lindsay up n julio n rocky came back.

thats bout it...

*theres a peice of you thats here with me...

2004-07-27T20:15:13Z

Heyy everyone...
so i just got home from Lake Placid with Lindsay last night. it was a good time, we were there for her dad's triatholon. he got 4th place and he is going to the championship in Hawaii. we think we should go cuz we were his number 1 supportors.

Before that, i was at camp for a week. it was a good time. i met lots of new people and got to see people i hadnt seen in awhile. once i got home i went back the next week for a few hours one night to visit some people.

hopefully some time this week my mom will let me take her car to go see Brandon.

my birthday is coming up n im not sure what im gonna do for it yet. prolly nothing but o well.

i think tonight i am volunteering at a homeless shelter with my mom and amanda.

well im out now. laterrs.
:0) Michelle

i like to lay back relax n enjoy my time

2004-07-07T19:56:49Z

so basically i have to worst luck ever. my cell phones been broken since last thursday. i brought it to solomn yesterday to get fixed an dthe guy told me i had to bring back the charger. so my mom brought back the charger today and he couldnt fix it. so he gave her a new one, buuuut he gave her the wrong one. so now i gotta wait til friday to get another one. eeee noo good.

and to top it off, im "grounded" cuz i disrespected my mom.

o well. so i finally got up the nerve to call justin. we are supposed to hang out either thursday or friday but i prolly wont have my cell so i wont be able to get a hold of him. but hopefully we'll chill soon.

my friend from tennesee, jared, got into a wicked bad drunken accident last night. like he's lucky to be alive. his friend is in the hospital. it kinda makes you think. but hes dumb and hes not changing his ways. hes having a "i'm still alive" party tonight. :0/

hmm...what else is new....nothin really. well ima go lay out some more cuz its so nice out. laterrs.
-M

my boring night

2004-07-01T02:14:42Z

so i was supposed to go to worcester state with stacey to visit some people. but i think that is out of the question. damn. now im just sitting at home. this is the first night in a long time i havent done anything. but it still sucks. o well.

ima go try to find something to do. laters.
-M

evrythingiwantd @ 2004-05-27T12:00:00

2004-05-27T16:01:38Z

not really much has been going out lately....im bored, home from school because i went to liz's nana's funeral. well im gonna go fiish that project up. byye :0)

running

2004-05-13T00:58:02Z

Today i went running with linz again, cuz we're just good like that. but then we went out for icecream right after that. eeee. o well. so im pumped cuz saturday we are all gonna go to the beach prolly. :0)

well im bored,laterr. :0)

30078239472395799234524 days later

2004-05-10T20:08:12Z

so its only been like what, 30,000 years since i last updated? close enough. puerto rico was such a good time, i want to move there. i havent really been doin much since i got home. just school, and occasionally i work at finishline. but not this week cuz they are cool and suspended me for a week and i have no clue why. but i dont think this job will be lasting long. they are way too.....eeee there. i dont know how to explain it.

but good news, im prolly gonna work for my dad in the summer. that will be perfect cuz then i can get whatever days off, hell pay me good and he will buy me a car cuz he will know that i will be getting steady money.

this weekend i went to the drive ins with John, Georgie and his girl. we had a good time. Liz was there with Kate, Danny, and Alex. ive been hanging out with liz every day lately, its a good time.

well i dont really have much else to say. maybe ill update sometime again soon...maybe not. :0)

erbody in da club get tips

2004-04-12T02:58:09Z

i had a pretty decent weekend. no complaints at all.

friday i worked for mi padre. washed his truck n some boats n stuff. then me n angel did some deliveries for him. drove all the way to newburyport. its all the way by hampton. we went there too tho. we went everywhere. haha. it was agood time. then we came back to paint his house but his dad said he had to do it the enxt day so we played some basketball. then me n him n eliezar went to the mall n for icecream.

saturday i worked. all mother f-ing day. morning i was at finish line. at night i was at roll on. ill miss that place. it was fun sometimes. ill miss the people mostly, they are what made it fun. me n kaity got to do the cha cha slide cuz it was my last night. :0) it was fun.

then today was easter. Happy Easter. i went to church in the morning, then to my grandparents house in glouscter. there were tons of people there but it wasnt bad.

then when i got home Matias, Mario n Natanya came n got me :0) that was the highlight of my weekend right there. i love Matias. n i miss him tons :0( i thnk he shoudl just come back to LHS. so yeah, we all chilled at natanyas, that was a good time. :0) n thats about it...

now ima go to bed... :0)

6 days till Puerto Rico :0)

damnnnn

2004-04-08T20:01:05Z

wow, its been awhile since i've updated...oooops! o well...

so yeah anyhways...prom was SUCH a good time. unbelievable. i didnt think it was going to be that fun, i really didnt, last year it wasnt that great but this year was soooo much fun. mikes a good kid. n plus i saw Rod there :0) i havent seen him in soooo long it was unreal. after prom i went to staceys house :0) that was a good time, i thik i had a lil too much fun, but we dont talk about it.

hmm...what else have i been up to.....not a whole lot i dont think.

anyways, this is a long weekend and i am sooo pumped. tonight i gotta work then i might chill with angel after, who knows. then tomorrow me n liz wanna see if john n mike will come to the movies with us a night. in the morning im gonna do an errand for mi padre. then ima see if reggie wants to hang otu in the afternoon for a lil while, whoknows what ill do. saturday i gotta work at finish line in the morning and at rooll on at night, then sunday is easter.

oooh yeah, i got ajob at finishline. whooohooo! im pumped bout that cuz i get a %40 discount on my first pair of shoes and then %30 on everything else i buy. i cant waiiit to buy them. theres already 4 pairs i want. eeee.

has anyone else seen that commercial for six flags with the old guy dancing?? o my god, i love it. its my favorite. hahaha its so funny.

well i cant really think of anything else i have to say, laterrrs :0)

evrythingiwantd @ 2004-03-28T13:06:00

2004-03-28T18:17:10Z

ok...i know i'm pathetic, this is my third update in what? an hour? o well...

so i was just thinking. i wish i was 6 years old again. remember when you were that young n nothing mattered? you'd go out n ride bikes, play kickball, play in a sandbox, go to the park, always had wholes in the knees of your jeans and you didnt care. i thouhgt about that thursday when i went babysitting with liz. we were outside pushing the kids on the swings and the 6 year old boy sammy kicked me and got sand on my pants and i brushed it off n then liz said something like "stop getting us dirty" and he stopped swinging for a minute looked up at us and said, "why do you guys care so much about getting dirty?" i didnt know what to say. i started to think about it and he is so right. when we were little we would just go outside, run around, get grass stains on our knees get mud all over us and not care. when did we start caring so much and why? and when we were like six the worst thing that happened was one of our friends couldnt come out to play or one of your barbies heads popped off. or maybe it wasnt that those were the only bad things that happend, maybe back then we knew how to keep our heads up and didnt let things get to us...who knows...all i know is theres not a lot that i wouldnt give to be that carefree again...

evrythingiwantd @ 2004-03-28T12:52:00

2004-03-28T17:52:30Z

eeee!

dont know what i want...

2004-03-28T17:40:31Z

Name Four Bad Habits You Have:
1. biting my nails
2. cracking my nuckles
3. forgetting what the point of my story was midway through it
4. chewing the inside of my lip

Name Four Things That You Wish You Could Have:
1. a car, any car, i wouldnt care what kind...preferibly an escalade but that wont be happening lol
2. the red n white backless phatfarms
3. parents that arent anal
4. a job at finish line

Name Four Scents You Love:
1. guys :0)
2. clothes right out of the dryer
3. coconut shampoo or suntain lotion
4. apple pie

Name Four People That Know You the Best:
1. Liz
2. Tim
3. Natanya
4. Katie

Name Four Things You’d Never Wear:
1. a studded belt
2. converse shoes
3. suspenders
4. plaid pants

Name Four Things You Are Thinking About Now:
1. i dont know what i want
2. how i could go to the nike soccer camp
3. hoping that finishline calls agian
4. how it sucks that i am grounded for a week

Name Four Things That You Have Done Today:
1. talked to natanya
2. ate a bagel
3. ate some thin mint cookies
4. looked up the info for the nike soccer camp

Name the Last Four Things You Have Bought:
1. wendys
2. baby phat wallet
3. sunglasses
4. went tanning

Name Four Bands/Groups Most People Don’t Know You Like:
1. chingy
2. britney spears
3. g-unit
4. finch

Name Four Drinks You Regularly Drink:
1. lemonade
2. grape juice
3. apple juice
4. fruit punch

Last words you said: "k, i'll tlak to you later then, bye"

Last song you sang?: "with you" jessica simpson
Last person you hugged?: Angel
Last thing you laughed at?: drunk Angel
Last time you said ’I Love You’ and meant it?: prolyl to natanya lol
Last time you cried?: last sunday
What’s in your CD player?: g-unit, chingy, britney spears
What color socks are you wearing?: im not wearing any
What’s under your bed?: clothes that i dont wear, shoes, papers...
What time did you wake up today?: 11:17
Current taste?: thin mints
Current hair?: tied back in a low messy bun
Current clothes?: white pajama pants with hearts on them and a white shirt from universal studios
Current Annoyance?: being grounded and not being able to do anything
Current worry?: how i am going to pay for puerto rico n prom
Current hate?: mr. cap haha
Favorite thing about the opposite sex?: eyes :0)
Last CD You Bought?: chingy n ludacris
Favorite place to be?: the beach in the summer, snowboarding in the winter, and with my friedns any time in between
Least favorite place?: here in my house alone...for a week cuz im grounded
If you could play an instrument?: piano
Favorite color?: pink
Do You Believe In An Afterlife?: yeah, heaven
How tall are you?: 5'7"
Current favorite word/saying?: "thats straight"
Favorite season?: summer
Favorite day?: Friday
Where would you like to go?: anywhere but here
What is your career going to be like?: something that has to do with helping people or a bilingual teacher...who knows?

"u n me coulda had something..."

2004-03-22T23:18:58Z

today was a real bad day. it was just so hard. he doesnt understand that everytime i see him it hurts cuz all he wants to be is friends and i want more than that. he thinks i can just make that jump n it will be ok, but i cant. i don tthink of him as my friend, and i know he really doesnt think of me as a friend either. friends hang out, friends call each and talk. we dont do that. we never will. we arent friends. im the girl that he says hi to in the halls cuz if he didnt, he would feel like a jerk. we are barely aquaintences let alone friends. i wish i could be friends with him, it would be better than nothing. but it just hurts, and he doesnt comprehend that.
i felt like such a little girl last night. i was basically on my knees begging him, promising him it would be different and that i had made a mistake. but he doesnt want to hear that. he doesnt care. in his eyes, we are what coulda been. but not anymore. "sorry but friends is all i can do for u". i wish i knew if it was in the least bit hard for him.
i really do miss him so much and it sucks cuz he made it quite apparent that he doesnt miss me.

from now on i think im straight with getting my heart broken...

*i know i made a mistake and now its too late i know he aint comin back*